I Don’t Want To!

I think I’m having a temper tantrum. The calendar suggests that it is time to write to you. Everything else in my being is screaming, “No, don’t want to!”. I’d rather listen to the birds, feel this cool, fresh morning air, follow my breath. And I am aware that there is no one who can make me write to you (or do anything for that matter).

But, there is a voice, or many of them, inside my head. Which of these can you identify for yourself?

  • internalized, domineering parent
  • (over)responsibility and should
  • compassion, concern and love for those you serve, the lives you touch
  • inner self, soul, the “heart of me”
  • fear
  • something else?

How do you be with the voices in your head? For today, I want to encourage you to notice, be a witness to them. At any moment, each may have something of value for you. Hear what they have to say and then step back and choose with intention.

This morning, my tantrum is a fight between “responsibility and service” on the one hand, and “inner self and my heart” on the other. I guess that boils down to “you – or – me” in this moment. I have decided to find a way to make that, “you – and – me” because I believe that if it is good for my spirit, it is good for the human, connected spirit. And if it is not good in me, if my energy is negative, even in the midst of doing “good”, then it is not good for the human, connected spirit.

So, after writing about my tantrum, I took a break. I checked in with my spirit and honored her. Coming back to you now, I can write from a place of deeply caring about you and your walk in the world. That feels good. I trust that this message was needed by at least one of you reading it. You – and – Me.

Where are you dishonoring you while serving another?
What is your “you – and – me” today?

What is YOUR wisdom?